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For the first time, in days, I have had a good day. A good day. Good day. Good. Day. I got to ride my bike. The only thing was, Jaize canceled, so I went by myself. Thanks, Jaize. Just kidding... It was a beautiful day. Too bad your mom thought it was going to be a bad day. haha. EKnee-way... It was great. I met Niko, hung out, got something to drink. Talked. Earlier, I had gone to Hiedi's Deli and gotten Ice Cream, (yes, you know it was Chocolate). And sat outside, looked at the mountains, and looked at the sky, (blue, blue skies they were). It was a beautiful day. Great time. No tests to worry about, no nothing. It felt good. I am SO tired now. BUT it was a great day. I racked myself coming down from a jump. Then the seat hit me in my back. Yeah, that felt great. Really great. Juuuusssst great. I am SO tired now. I just need a moment to rest, just a moment. Juuuuuuuusssssssss.......

wow, ok, back. Today was awesome! Finally, a good day. And no wurryies about the past, just today. Today. Today felt good. I was really looking forward to hanging out with Jaize today, but, alas, it didn't happen. But, we are still on for Thursday. So, I am happy about that. I get to go hang out with her. For awhile. One of the few people that I like to sit and just talk to and be around. The others are Niko and Blue, and Matt, and Alex. That is all, I think. And since I can't think of anyone else, no one else matters.

Yeah so, today was good. As you can tell. I didn't read any poetry today. I didn't write any either. I did do some drawings last night. One is my "avatar" in google talk. Another I will never post. Too bad. I did some writing too. Again, that I will never post. The drawing is political, and has a very ambiguous meaning which means I could post it. But I won't. Because it really only has one meaning, and I don't want that to change. I need to work on my tech paper. I think I might paste some stuff. But, instead, I think I won't. I am going to write some stuff on social interaction. That seems to be what I think most about at this time in my life. I find it interesting and intriguing. And necessary to try and understand as part of life, and growing up, since I can't seem to get that yet. I have realized that I haven't yet passed a stage in life, the "identity" stage. I learned those in physcology. I have found that to be one of the most useful classes that I have ever taken. Really. It was a great class to take. I am going to sell my computer, for like $400 dollars. I am going to get a laptop, an ultra-portable if I can. That is what I want. HAHAhahaha.... I get a graduation present, and a birthday present. hahah, cool... I AM GRADUATING HIGHSCHOOL AFTER THIS WEEK!! COOL!!!! FINALLY, I NEVER HAVE TO EVEN THINK ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL AGAIN!!! SO COOOLL!! So, I am going to write. Bye. Goodnight. I need sleep. I need rest. I need time to reflect on today. haha, kinda like the moon does right, Blue? it reflects the light of the past day, and gives you one last chance to look at it.... But, still at a different time, a different perspective. That is why I said I was never coming back... I didn't. I am someone new. The me that you will see tomorrow. And then, I will disappear into the past yet again. Rather like I have been doing for the past 15 years. Never have I seen tomorrow. I am rather glad; I know how I should live when I am about to die. I die everyday. Like a phoenix. I just get to live again. And the me of tomorrow will know everything of the world of the me of yesterday. That is rather an unfair way to live isn't it? But then again, what do I care, I will never know tomorrow...

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