Ahh, life.
Life at the moment sucks. Truly. I don't know why. Everytime I look at my life, think about life, look at my life, I think it sucks. I feel terrible, and don't know why. I flew to New Mexico, and back. I flew from DIA to El Paso International Airport in El Paso, TX. I love flying. It was so cool. We went through a storm, that hail storm that we just had. We flew through that before we landed. Before we landed, (back in Denver) we were coming in with another plane. That was a very cool sight. Have you ever watched a plane land? While being right next to it? Watching it come in from the sky, not just watching it touch down? Very cool. I saw myself as being crazy while I was on the plane. I realized that to some extent, I am becoming on of those, "NO FEAR!!," kinda guys. When we went through the storm, we hit tons of turbulence. It was pretty violent. Everyone had to put everything away and the flight attendants had to sit down, and you could hear bags and things moving around in the overhead bins. It got pretty rough. I looked around the cabin, and everyone was grasping their seats armrest and holding on. And the few little kids in the front were crying. I was smiling, and looking out the window the whole while. I thought it was fun. I was excited, and couldn't wait for more...
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This was the first time that I had flown alone, and had my own hotel room, alone. No, sorry, it still wasn't the first time that I had to pay for my own trip. Anyway, I stayed in the comfort suites hotel, directely across the street from the NMSU campus. That campus is pretty large, but not that large. I like the campus, and I liked the people. I am still uncertain though as to whether I am going to like Las Cruces. It isn's so much that I won't like the city, it really is just that I am worried about it being a small town, which it is. None of the stuff that I am accustomed to here. No downtown lounges in the Hyatt. I have also come to the realization that I am quite a yuppy. I like to be in the, "in," crowd. In a small town like that, there is no, "in," crowd. I realized that the life that I have become accustomed to is not the norm. I relized that Denver is special. We have, on last estimate, the third largest educated population. Post-Secondary education that is. The ones that go to CU-Boulder, and CSU, and then stay here in Colorado. They go to work here. They are all the white-collar workers. They never get their hands dirty, no factories, none of that. I like it that way. The way I want to live. I want to live in a condo, in the middle of downtown. I like the life-style. I like being in it all. It is fun, having life around you. Other locations are not. They have blue-collar workers, and don't have downtown lounges with soothing, calming music, with perfectially matching, aesthetically, decorations. MODERN. We are very modern stylized here in Denver, in the main part of the city, well, actually, mostly towards LODO, but, I love LODO. I like the style. I love to wake up in the morning and go out side, and look west and see snow covered mountains. I do, really. I like to see the mountains. Like to know the mountains. In Las Cruces, there are mountains. They don't cover the entire west side of your view, and they are never snow-capped. They also aren't as big. They are way off in the distance. Tiny. Nothing. It was humid there when I went. It is dry, very dry, here in Colorado. I like Colorado though, I am used to it. In Las Cruces, it is going to be wierd to only have to dial seven (7) digit numbers. They don't dial area codes like here. I like here, because I am used to that. The street lights are horizontal instead of vertical. Kinda wierd. People don't excersice. They hardly ride their bikes. We in Colorado love to be outdoors. They don't so much. We love our technollogy, them...not so much. Here, you see people with iPods, and laptops all over the place. There... not so much. Our airport is so much bigger, better. I love our airport. We have hip clubs and places to be. Nightlife. There..... not so much. In a total comparison of how these cities compare, I realize that Denver is a big city. Not necessarily in the sense of tons of people, but in the sense of life, it is comparable to a big city. Artists come on tour here, they perform here. Entertainment companies come here. We have skiing and snowboarding here. We have mountain drives. They..... not so much. We have cool places to be and go. Them..... not so much. I am glad I have lived here. I like it here. I fit in here. It will be wierd to go there....
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Another thing.
When I got back to Denver and we got out of the plane, after the lightning being to close and waiting for the hail storm that we just flew through had passed, I was walking and I could hear these people talking to each other. I only overheard a few phrases, but they were talking about people being all plugged in and stuff. I laughed silently to myself. I was walking next to this lady that had her iPod out, headphones in. She took one out and began talking on her cellphone. I myself was looking pretty stylish with a tight t-shirt and nice fitting pants. I looked really good. (yes, I know: concieted narcissist. I don't care) She was also pretty stylish. I had my PSP in my pocket with my music playing and my headphones in. I had the wires hanging out of my pocket. I also had just got on my cellphone with my mom. They were talking about us in the same way that I had describd people in my paper. I have not abandoned that, just haven't worked on it for quite some time.
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We had a gateway in Calculus today, or as our teacher says, "Calculust". A gateway is a test that you HAVE to pass in order to even have a chance at passing the class. There are three (3). They are pass/fail, and there is no partial credit, answers are right or wrong. I think I passed; it was pretty easy. It was on Integration. The definite and indefinte integral. I love math. I love learning. I just don't like the obligation that goes along with it. Like having to study. I don't study. I don't even do homework. I don't understand other people having to study to remember things. I remember things that people tell me all the time. I hardly forget. Especially if it is something that I am interested in. I never forget things that have already happened. BUT, I do have a problem with remembering things that I have yet to do. To give you a little bit of an exxagerated example, I can remember an hour-and-a-half lecture word-for-word, the only exaggerated part being word-for-word, but can't seem to remember what I have to do tomorrow. I don't even know what tomorrow is. I don't know if it is the last day of school, or it is finals. OH SHIT!! I think I have a phys test tomorrow... No wurrees, mate. I know everything on the test, but I will probably forget to take a scientific calculator. I can't wait for school to be over. I hate worrying about something that I don't know about. That is what I worry about. I don't worry about stuff that I know is going to happen; I worry because I don't know if it is going to happen, or WHAT even.
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I don't know why people say, "when life gives you lemons, make lemonade." Lemonade is just watered down lemons!! I would rather eat the lemons and drink water seperatly. I also don't know why people think of lemons as being bad, sour. Lemons are good. Life is great when you get lemons! I think the only thing that I would snap about is boring things. Life would suck if all I got was suger snap peas. OR even worse, TOFU!!!!!!!!! life would definetly suck then. I am glad I don't drive. I have no urge to drive. NONE! It is like my cellphone, all it does is hurt you, but, you will eventually be FORCED to get one. I will eventually be FORCED to drive. GAs prices are so high, it makes me laugh. Some people ask why you might buy a bicycle that costs lots of money, and then you point, laugh, and remark, "and you pay $60 to fill up your gas tank in your car, and how much did you pay for your car? Or how much are you paying a month? $300? oh, really? And you are the only one driving it, correct? And where do you go with your vehicle? To work? then back? oh. ok. and long does it take you to get to work? oh, and hour, huh? and what exactly do you do for that hour? oh. you eat, sit on your ass, AND get your bloodpressure up? oh, that just sounds absolutely FANTASTIC for you! oh, wait, and you pay how much for insurance? oh, two hundred a month? oh, ok. That all seems fine. Oh, wait, you fill up your gas tank MORE than two times a week? oh, ok. You do realize that it takes me 25 min. to get from the same place as you, to go to the same place as you, all for let then $5? and that is only for a snack and drink. I could do it for free. Oh, and my bike was only a ONE TIME cost? Oh, and repair costs are pretty much guaranteed to be less than your amount of gas for one week? Oh, and I get a workout? Yes, my blodd pressure goes down, and I get a good cardio workout. Oh, and I get to have more fun...tons more fun. Sounds like mine really was a waste of money...oh wait? you have been doing this for HOW MANY YEARS??!!?!? and how many MORE years are you going to CONTINUE doing it??!?!?!? WoW. Amazing. Fantastic. Awesome.
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I think that I would enjoy living in a col climate better than a hot one. Because, at least in a cold climate, you can take clothes off if you get hot, and put some on if you get cold. and heating is easier than cooling. Most common chemical reactions are exothermic, not endo. They produce energy, energy is realesed more precisely. In the heat, you can only take clothes off, but soon, you run out and you are standing naked, and you are still hot.
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Oh, and on thing with realting energy and mass, and matter, I have realized that matter is energy from the simple fact that we are moving. I am just beginning to understand all od these things that have been said before, but people still don't want to accept. We are energy. But, I don't want to have to explain myself, fuck off all you critics, I am going to be like the religions of the world and just say, "becuase you can't give me a better explaination that doesn't include all our your fancy science lingo mumbo jumbo rubbish that I can't understand, and even when I do, none of the concepts make sense to my under developed brain, so I look like an ass, and I don't want you and your 'theories' coming in here and sturring up trouble." So, there, take that religions of the world, oh wait, I mean, critics of my theories... :) ... "so i am going to stick to my stories, and legends, and myths, and "biblical texts", but are those that can't tell me a DAMNED THING about my world today!!".....
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Me ranting, since no one reads this besides me anyway.... i wish people did........
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This was the first time that I had flown alone, and had my own hotel room, alone. No, sorry, it still wasn't the first time that I had to pay for my own trip. Anyway, I stayed in the comfort suites hotel, directely across the street from the NMSU campus. That campus is pretty large, but not that large. I like the campus, and I liked the people. I am still uncertain though as to whether I am going to like Las Cruces. It isn's so much that I won't like the city, it really is just that I am worried about it being a small town, which it is. None of the stuff that I am accustomed to here. No downtown lounges in the Hyatt. I have also come to the realization that I am quite a yuppy. I like to be in the, "in," crowd. In a small town like that, there is no, "in," crowd. I realized that the life that I have become accustomed to is not the norm. I relized that Denver is special. We have, on last estimate, the third largest educated population. Post-Secondary education that is. The ones that go to CU-Boulder, and CSU, and then stay here in Colorado. They go to work here. They are all the white-collar workers. They never get their hands dirty, no factories, none of that. I like it that way. The way I want to live. I want to live in a condo, in the middle of downtown. I like the life-style. I like being in it all. It is fun, having life around you. Other locations are not. They have blue-collar workers, and don't have downtown lounges with soothing, calming music, with perfectially matching, aesthetically, decorations. MODERN. We are very modern stylized here in Denver, in the main part of the city, well, actually, mostly towards LODO, but, I love LODO. I like the style. I love to wake up in the morning and go out side, and look west and see snow covered mountains. I do, really. I like to see the mountains. Like to know the mountains. In Las Cruces, there are mountains. They don't cover the entire west side of your view, and they are never snow-capped. They also aren't as big. They are way off in the distance. Tiny. Nothing. It was humid there when I went. It is dry, very dry, here in Colorado. I like Colorado though, I am used to it. In Las Cruces, it is going to be wierd to only have to dial seven (7) digit numbers. They don't dial area codes like here. I like here, because I am used to that. The street lights are horizontal instead of vertical. Kinda wierd. People don't excersice. They hardly ride their bikes. We in Colorado love to be outdoors. They don't so much. We love our technollogy, them...not so much. Here, you see people with iPods, and laptops all over the place. There... not so much. Our airport is so much bigger, better. I love our airport. We have hip clubs and places to be. Nightlife. There..... not so much. In a total comparison of how these cities compare, I realize that Denver is a big city. Not necessarily in the sense of tons of people, but in the sense of life, it is comparable to a big city. Artists come on tour here, they perform here. Entertainment companies come here. We have skiing and snowboarding here. We have mountain drives. They..... not so much. We have cool places to be and go. Them..... not so much. I am glad I have lived here. I like it here. I fit in here. It will be wierd to go there....
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Another thing.
When I got back to Denver and we got out of the plane, after the lightning being to close and waiting for the hail storm that we just flew through had passed, I was walking and I could hear these people talking to each other. I only overheard a few phrases, but they were talking about people being all plugged in and stuff. I laughed silently to myself. I was walking next to this lady that had her iPod out, headphones in. She took one out and began talking on her cellphone. I myself was looking pretty stylish with a tight t-shirt and nice fitting pants. I looked really good. (yes, I know: concieted narcissist. I don't care) She was also pretty stylish. I had my PSP in my pocket with my music playing and my headphones in. I had the wires hanging out of my pocket. I also had just got on my cellphone with my mom. They were talking about us in the same way that I had describd people in my paper. I have not abandoned that, just haven't worked on it for quite some time.
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We had a gateway in Calculus today, or as our teacher says, "Calculust". A gateway is a test that you HAVE to pass in order to even have a chance at passing the class. There are three (3). They are pass/fail, and there is no partial credit, answers are right or wrong. I think I passed; it was pretty easy. It was on Integration. The definite and indefinte integral. I love math. I love learning. I just don't like the obligation that goes along with it. Like having to study. I don't study. I don't even do homework. I don't understand other people having to study to remember things. I remember things that people tell me all the time. I hardly forget. Especially if it is something that I am interested in. I never forget things that have already happened. BUT, I do have a problem with remembering things that I have yet to do. To give you a little bit of an exxagerated example, I can remember an hour-and-a-half lecture word-for-word, the only exaggerated part being word-for-word, but can't seem to remember what I have to do tomorrow. I don't even know what tomorrow is. I don't know if it is the last day of school, or it is finals. OH SHIT!! I think I have a phys test tomorrow... No wurrees, mate. I know everything on the test, but I will probably forget to take a scientific calculator. I can't wait for school to be over. I hate worrying about something that I don't know about. That is what I worry about. I don't worry about stuff that I know is going to happen; I worry because I don't know if it is going to happen, or WHAT even.
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I don't know why people say, "when life gives you lemons, make lemonade." Lemonade is just watered down lemons!! I would rather eat the lemons and drink water seperatly. I also don't know why people think of lemons as being bad, sour. Lemons are good. Life is great when you get lemons! I think the only thing that I would snap about is boring things. Life would suck if all I got was suger snap peas. OR even worse, TOFU!!!!!!!!! life would definetly suck then. I am glad I don't drive. I have no urge to drive. NONE! It is like my cellphone, all it does is hurt you, but, you will eventually be FORCED to get one. I will eventually be FORCED to drive. GAs prices are so high, it makes me laugh. Some people ask why you might buy a bicycle that costs lots of money, and then you point, laugh, and remark, "and you pay $60 to fill up your gas tank in your car, and how much did you pay for your car? Or how much are you paying a month? $300? oh, really? And you are the only one driving it, correct? And where do you go with your vehicle? To work? then back? oh. ok. and long does it take you to get to work? oh, and hour, huh? and what exactly do you do for that hour? oh. you eat, sit on your ass, AND get your bloodpressure up? oh, that just sounds absolutely FANTASTIC for you! oh, wait, and you pay how much for insurance? oh, two hundred a month? oh, ok. That all seems fine. Oh, wait, you fill up your gas tank MORE than two times a week? oh, ok. You do realize that it takes me 25 min. to get from the same place as you, to go to the same place as you, all for let then $5? and that is only for a snack and drink. I could do it for free. Oh, and my bike was only a ONE TIME cost? Oh, and repair costs are pretty much guaranteed to be less than your amount of gas for one week? Oh, and I get a workout? Yes, my blodd pressure goes down, and I get a good cardio workout. Oh, and I get to have more fun...tons more fun. Sounds like mine really was a waste of money...oh wait? you have been doing this for HOW MANY YEARS??!!?!? and how many MORE years are you going to CONTINUE doing it??!?!?!? WoW. Amazing. Fantastic. Awesome.
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I think that I would enjoy living in a col climate better than a hot one. Because, at least in a cold climate, you can take clothes off if you get hot, and put some on if you get cold. and heating is easier than cooling. Most common chemical reactions are exothermic, not endo. They produce energy, energy is realesed more precisely. In the heat, you can only take clothes off, but soon, you run out and you are standing naked, and you are still hot.
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Oh, and on thing with realting energy and mass, and matter, I have realized that matter is energy from the simple fact that we are moving. I am just beginning to understand all od these things that have been said before, but people still don't want to accept. We are energy. But, I don't want to have to explain myself, fuck off all you critics, I am going to be like the religions of the world and just say, "becuase you can't give me a better explaination that doesn't include all our your fancy science lingo mumbo jumbo rubbish that I can't understand, and even when I do, none of the concepts make sense to my under developed brain, so I look like an ass, and I don't want you and your 'theories' coming in here and sturring up trouble." So, there, take that religions of the world, oh wait, I mean, critics of my theories... :) ... "so i am going to stick to my stories, and legends, and myths, and "biblical texts", but are those that can't tell me a DAMNED THING about my world today!!".....
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Me ranting, since no one reads this besides me anyway.... i wish people did........
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